ocean air
I go to the beach and look for sea-glass
but all I find is
bottle caps and bin bags
leftover from illegal beach parties
I didn’t go to
I go the sea to look for sunlight
and all I find is
an ocean of loneliness
that’s been welling up inside of me
I hadn’t noticed
it is
water brought out by water
it only happens at the beach
when the salty air
takes my hair
and wraps it around my throat
my damp and sandy fingers
are numb and fumbling
with the cold
it only happens at the beach
while I gasp in
the un-stale air
without
realising I’d been thirsty
without
realising I’d been lonely
I’ve only talked to the moon in days
sitting under the windowsill
nestled between my dying plants
and the edge of my bed
cradling a mug of tea
just to feel the warmth
I talk to the moon
as if she were my friend
I’ve barely spoken a word in weeks
to anyone anyhow
but somehow
I hadn’t noticed
until I felt the calling of the ocean
it’s something about its
vastness
it wants to expand to fill
to take up the empty space inside
of me
a well
that’s been digging itself
it is not as if I am
unhappy
I have been worse for wear
and its hardly like
this week
is any worse than
this year
although this year has
been worse than most
ask anyone you pass
it’s something about the ocean
it wants to hold you close
and when you’ve forgotten what that feels like
it comes at quite a shock
- g h s
I haven't written a poem in ages, and haven't published one online in years, but sometimes poetry is the only solace you can find and its a way of connecting in with yourself and your emotions and perhaps even picking up things you didn't realise were going around your mind. This poem is just something simple about how the sea breeze can clear your head and make you think clearly, and in my case realise how tough starting uni during the covid-19 pandemic can be.
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